Don't Be a Maybe

A friend asked me if I am ready for a real relationship. Like, a legit commitment. I guess I'm not. I have already forgotten how it is to be in a real relationship. Perhaps that's why I don't want to be in one. Hahaha. I have my reasons! The last 2 guys I was involved with were practically big walking jokes... I don't even know if what we had falls under the relationship category. Lol.

A few months back, I went out with a guy several times. On our last "hang out" (I refuse to call it a date!), he started talking about relationships, things that make him happy, how he liked having me around and planned a trip to Lego Land for us... I was like, "Hmmmmmmmmmmm. okay?".

If I like the person, then okay, I like him but that doesn't mean I want to be in a relationship with him right then and there. So yeah, I bailed on the Lego Land guy. I may have turned the other cheek on what could be a nice relationship but I was not in girlfriend-mode so I dont have regrets.

I think the only person I will get myself involved with this time (and the person I will consider going to Lego Land with!) will be someone who will remind me how being committed feels like. I don't want to settle for less, or force myself into falling in love just because I think it's my turn. No way I'm engaging myself on yet another "relationship for the sake of having a relationship" type of relationship. Because truth be told...


At least I don't.